The most awful dream

I had to most terrible dream last night and I can't stop thinking about it, so here I am blogging about it. And it's gonna be all over the place cause lets face it. Explaining dreams is the hardest thing ever.

It started out I was on my way to pick up my two kids from Alex's friends house. Apparently me and Alex had to girls a two year old and a 6 month old. (about I didn't really know haha) So Alex's friend and his fiance were watching them and I go pick them up and they didn't wanna give them back almost like they were worried and just kept kissing them and saying how much they loved them.

I finally got them and me and Alex went to my friends brothers wedding. It was the night before the wedding and they had this pre surf party, everyone was out surfing then we went to a water park, then me and alex went shopping for a dress for the wedding.

We went back to the hotel room(the kids were left there, don't know why) And all of a sudden Alex was like "I can't take this anymore. I know you can't see it but you need to open your eyes and see who you really are" And I was like what do you mean and he said "just look!"

There was this giant mirror along the wall and I looked and I was like the fattest person ever(with kim kardashians face?)(I was skinny but in the mirror I was fat) And I saw this clip of us dress shopping earlier and was just like buy me this dress and this one. And I was just demanding and mean and selfish.

But this is the worst part, I looked at our girls who before were perfect, and they were covered in burn scars. And Alex said, "you did that! Don't you remember you burned our girls!"

And I was like nooo! And he took them and left and I was alone.

Do you see why this is the worst dream ever?! I can't stop thinking about it. And I can't stop thinking about why I am such a psycho in my dream what the heck!?! Ahhh. Definitely the most disturbing thing I've ever dreamed. So effed up right?!