Let's get real

I always talk about how good I've been able to do on my diets but I'm gonna get real here. I'm not doing so good this week. This really sucks to say/write out loud. But it's true. I don't seem to have any diet motivation. That doesn't mean that I'm stuffing my face and eating a lot of crap. I did have a day where I had a chicken biscuit from Chick-fil-A and then a crunchwrap supreem from Taco Bell. And then I was sick as crap the rest of the day(that was wed)

Let's start from the begining. I allow myself a freeday every 10 days or so when I start to plateau. My free day involves stuffing my face, after a long morning run of course. And then the next day I go back to my diet, and back to loosing weight. Well things didn't quite go as planned this week. I didn't stuff my face on Wednesday, I just had those things listed above, cause it turns out my body can't handle bad food, at all.

So I woke up Thursday, thought it was gonna be a good day. I had an apple for bfast. Then it went downhill when I had a granola bar and a brownie. Crap just screwed up my diet. And thats all I had for the whole day, then at night I had pizza. It's not like I'm eating a ton of bad stuff, not even a lot of food at all. I just don't have motivation to eat my diet food, or a lot of any food really. I NEED to get my motivation back and start eating good! Someone help me!!

Oh and if you're wondering how I did the rest of the days. I did good all day Friday until Friday night when I had a granola bar and some veggie chips and an otter pop. Crap ruined again!!

Then today I had an apple for bfast(I need to buy eggs) And then I went to movie and lunch with my mother in law this afternoon and I had a chicken sandwich at chick-fil-a. So here we go again, not going good dang it. But I really am going to try so hard the rest of the day and Sunday I WILL DO BETTER!! It's just so frustrating I feel like I'm failing so bad. I know I'm not eating a lot but I'm not eating a lot of good either. I just don't have motivation to eat anything really.

At least the one thing I can say is that I've still been working out hard. But really I just wanna cry right now. I don't get whats wrong with me these last few days. I wanna get out of it!!

The weekend

Remember how I said I went to California this weekend. Well, truth is I really didn't want to go too bad. All the girls in my family were going up for my cousins wedding and they made a girls trip out of it. I didn't wanna go cause I had quiz's to get done and honestly I'm just tired of going out of town so much. But it was a fun trip. As much as I just wanted to get back home the whole time haha I'm such a homebody. Oh and my sister flew into LA from NC for the wedding it was fun seeing her too. and the wedding was really nice

Here are some pictures of the trip. The wedding and then the next day we went to the beach

Also, a facebook friend just posted this. eeekkkk!!

Also again I made another photobucket comparison and it is really cracking me up how hideous I was in it.

Go ahead you may laugh.

Also, also I think I wanna try doing Marathon Monday as a link-up and see how that goes. But I am totally lost in the making of buttons. A button for the link-up, not the blog.

So if anyone knows how to do that business I would greatly appreciate some help!

True Life: I'm a Healthy Living Blogger

Today I'm linking up with Mrs. Monologues and Tara at fabulous but evil for their True Life link up! And yes That would be again. I guess I'm not just a general blogger haha

It seems pretty weird to call myself that but I guess that's kinda what this blog has transformed to.

You see I didn't always start out as a health living anything. Actually, I was a very unhealthy girl. All my life I have been overweight. When I was younger and the fattest girl of all my friends I basically hated life. I was so mad that all of my friends could eat whatever they want and be thin as poles. I tried dieting on and off in my life, tried so many diets but nothing ever stuck, it usually resulted in my putting a little more than before on.

I guess I was never really totally committed. But something this year just finally clicked for me. I needed make a change.

I started really committing to myself in the end or March of 2011 and things have been really going great. I became a fitness addict and really on top with a healthy diet. To date I am at 44 lb weight loss and have really never felt better in my life.

I know my face kills me in this picture too, but it's the closest thing I have to a recentish picture of my face

I'm currently training for my first race and I document all of my training on Marathon Monday. I also blog about my weigh in's workouts, hiking, my dogs, and also about adventures in being a military wife

I still have a long way to go. So come follow me on my blog as I blog about my journey in trying to live a healthy life and being an army wife and dog mom!

Unmotivated

I'm feeling so crazy unmotivated about school. Online school is really hard for me this semester, I don't know why, I did good last semester. I'm taking BIO201 Anatomy and Physiology and MAT1o2. The first lesson in BIO I have to read 115 crazy long pages do a quiz with it and 2 labs. There is so much info in those 115 pages I don't know what to take in for the quiz and know what to study for. So I'm kinda stressing about that. I don't wanna start math yet because my dumb math professor still hasn't emailed me back. I sent her 2 emails, one yesterday morning and one on Monday morning asking if I can take the final with a proctor cause it says the final needs to be taken in person, but I wont be here during the final! Grrrr!!

But on a happier note, I went into the doctor today and had some very surprising results. Let me start out by saying after I got back from Powell I stepped on the scale the next day to find out I gain over 3 lbs! Oops. So I wasn't expecting awesome results, but I went in today and I lost 6 lbs since my last appointment! Woot!!

I'm all about being motivated with working out and dieting but I need to somehow find that same motivation for school. Ahhhh someone help me!

I promise I'm not that vain

I'm just really fascinated about this haha

The first picture is me hiking end of Feb/begining of March of 2011

And the second is me hiking today.

Just 6 months! With a loss of 43 lbs! Wahoo!

I hope that by the end of this month I'll hit my big 50!

Silly

A year ago(ish I honestly don't totally remember the exact date) Alex and I got fake married.. That's where you're already married but you invite everyone to see you pretend to get married and have a reception. It was good times. I've seen a bunch of blogs where people try on their wedding dresses a year later to see if they still fit. I wanted to do that, except I wanted to make sure it didn't fit hahaa cause I was a bit bigger.

Gross right. Yeah that's what I said when I looked through these. I was just telling Alex the other day how much it sucks the happiest pictures I have are the ones I'm supposed to love. My fake wedding and pictures of the time I lived in Korea with my hubs for 6 weeks. Yet those are the pictures that I can't even look at without being grossed out at myself. Grrr

Here I am a year later

Why yes, I am doing weird faces cause I'm totally awkward whilst taking self photos

Wanna know why I'm sad faccing? Cause the biggest part of the dress is the chest. Oh noess!! I'm losing all my boobs! :(

Pictures Just don't do it justice just how much room is in the chest.

I knows its not just my boobs getting smaller, even though you can see a significant difference, boo. Its my back, arm, and stomach fat too. So yay!

Gotta say, this dress just looks silly on me now. I gotta do a trash this dress sesh.

Sad part of this all is this was in August and I didn't even try to start losing weight till March. That like 7 more months of gaining. Ya this wasn't even t he biggest I got. Ewe.

Weigh in Wednesday and What your song Thursday

Ya I know, no need to tell me Weigh in Wednesday was yesterday. But my doctors appointment was today. So is my next one in 4 weeks ps, in case you were wondering.

But on with todays numbers. I wasn't totally satisfied, but my doctor was amazed at how well I'm doing. So that game me a little more confidence about my numbers.

I lost 4 lbs since my last appointment.

But the cool part is, I got hooked up to the machine(she says the name every time, but every time I forget what it's called) and since the last time I was hooked up I have...

Lost 9lbs

Lost 13lbs of fat

Gone down 3 points on the BMI scales

And have lost of good percent of body fat or something. Ha I guess I should listen better in my appointments.

But after hearing that I'm pretty happy with where I am now.

She said that you should be loosing a pound a week and that is like normal/where I should be.

Butttt...By the time my next appointment comes around (4weeks) I wanna lose 10 lbs. Which may or may not be reasonable. Especially since I'll be on a house boat at Lake Powell for a week. But I'm gonna try my hardest to make that goal.

Now onto the Link up!

I was just really feeling these two songs today.

I can't decide between them, and I love them both, so here they are

Mumford and Sons

True Life: I'm a general blogger

Today, I’m linking up with Tara of fabulous but evil and Mrs. Monologues in the True Life Link Up!






I started blogging 3 years ago next month.

When I started blogging I blogged about fun dates with my boyfriend

Our many Spontaneous trips to California and other places, but mostly Cali

And our puppies

Then in December 2009 we got married, then he joined the army and I started blogging about being sad and missin my man

The First Day

Sad time

But then I started to get over that (a little) and now I blog about happier thing (sometimes) haha

I still blog about fun trips

Dates with my love

And our not so little anymore dogs

And something new I blog about frequently is my weight loss journey

40lbs down and counting!

The times with we have together are a less often then when we were dating

But that just means we have more fun when we are together :)

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And we always have our sweet reunions

Sasha & Alex from chelsea tolman on Vimeo.

Thanks for following along with my life

And if you're not following, try it! There might be something you like in here!

Weigh in Wednesday. Week, this doesn't count

Long time since a weigh in Wednesday. The whole month of July was nothin but vacations, which everyone knows is not a good time for dieting. I tried...some of the time..

But since my last appointment as of today I have lost 2 more lbs.

Butttt. I'm not counting this haha. I'm on my lady business today and I feel fatter than fat. Super bloated and Yucckk.

Thanks everyone so much for your nice words from my last post

Just reading that actually made me feel a lot more positive :)

Remember to enter the giveaway! It'll end tonight at midnight. MST

Just a Quick

update. This is Weigh in Wednesday Week 5. But on Thursday, cause I just went to the doc today.

I am incredibly surprised with me weight loss this week.

I lost 5 lbs! And I had a big fat free day this week!

I decided last week I am going to do a free day a week.

And I'm glad I did cause it looks like it payed off haha

Anyways that's 5lbs with a total of 23 lbs in a couple days over a month!

Super happy! :)

And I'm super happy that it's date night! Well, date day, yes all day date day, haha. I just had to up date this cause I'm fairly pleased with myself :)

The morning started out with some cracker barrel, where look who won!!


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Can't wait to see what the rest of the day holds :)

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P.S. 5 more followers till a giveaway!1

Weigh in Wordless Wednesday Week 4

I was pretty bummed about my loss this week. Another 3lbs down. I know it's not bad, I just wanted it to be more. I just gotta keep telling myself slow and steady wins the race.

This week -3lbs

4 weeks total- 19lbs

Now onto wordless wednesday.

Eeeeekkkkk!!!!

Weigh in Wednesday Week 3

This week and I lost another 3 lbs. So in 3 weeks I've lost 16lbs. I wish it could be better but meh, it's keeping up with my goal. And if I want to make my goal weight by October I need to lose 3lbs a week. Don't bother doing the math. haha I have a lot too lose. I also went down 3.5 points in my BMI and like I think 2% body fat gone.

Also since I started losing weight about the end of March, I have lost 32 lbs.

I don't have a lot if any full body pictures, which I wish would have taken to see a difference. But I do have a few of my face so you can see the weight loss in my face. Still not a lot though, cause who likes taking pictures when they're fat? Not me.

side note: until looking at these side by side I didn't realize I had lost that much, weird

So here are the pictures of my face plus 32lbs.

This is end of December

This is middle of March

And this is my face -32lbs taken today

I went to the doctor today, and while there I told here something weird that's been happening since I started this diet. I have not dreams, but nightmares about cheating on my diet about 3-4 times a week. I have nightmares where I'm either being forced to eat of have to eat bad food to avoid starving. Even though its not that bad of food like last night I had to eat a soft taco, the night before wheat thins. And I remember one dream my cousin forced me to eat a piece of bread and butter. And every time I eat it I just cry, then I wake up so worried thinking it was real and I cheated on my diet.

If any dream interpreters are out there let me know what you think! haha

P.S. Oh so so soon till Alex comes home!!

Weigh in Wednesday. Week 2

I wasn't expecting anything great this week. I've watched enough of The Biggest Loser to know that week 2 is never good. Also the fact it's that time of the month and I feel way bloated. But I still lost so that's good I guess.

Week 2: -3 lbs
Total: -13 lbs

I guess I can't complain much with 13 lbs in 2 weeks. I just hope next week is better. I've been doing this diet for 2 weeks now, and haven't had anything sweet or unhealthy in 2 weeks. Not even a diet soda. I also haven't ate out once in 2 weeks which is like nothing for some people but I usually just eat for me, so I don't like cooking for one. So before this I would usually just grab something somewhere. But I've cooked all my meals for the last 2 weeks, and in that time I realized something, I'm a pretty dang good cook if I say so myself.

Anywhays hope everyone has a happy hump day!
P.S. Alex comes home so soon! Wish it were sooner haha but I'm sure the time will fly :)

Happy June!

I'm so happy it's finally June! This is the month Alex come home for mid tour leave! Seriously can't tell you how excited I am! And two days after he gets here it's his birthday!

I went into the doctor today for my first week check up on the first line therapy program. I lost 10 lbs in a week. Pretty happy about that.

I stuck to my word and didn't cheat once, not even a bite of anything bad. Which was so very hard since we had a huge bbq at my house for Memorial Day. And I didn't have any diet soda. The first like 2-3 days of that I had a headache. But since then I haven't even really noticed I haven't had one. I been really really exhausted this whole week and really irratable. (sorry family and friends) But the doctor said it's totally normal for the first week, and things will get better from here on out. I can already tell that aspect is getting better. But really other than that the diet is going good. I eat every 2-3 hours and I'm not ever hungry. Actually sometimes I have to force myself to eat every 2-3 hours.

Anyway Happy June every one! Hope every one has a good rest of the day.

New Diet

I went to the Doctor today to start the First Line Therapy program.

I really think this is going to be so great. First off, my doctor is awesome! She went explained everything to me so well, and helped me understand a lot.

I think the plan she has me on is going to be so good. I can't wait to start doing it and seeing the changes.

With diets and whatever I've always let myself have like a treat here and there or a free day. But with this I'm so determined to follow it perfectly. Mostly because I have a doctor to confront every week to see if I'm following

I got hooked up to some wires that read my body which my doctor read to make a meal plan just for me.

Here's a breakdown of what my day will look like
I'm at a 1300 calorie intake
2 servings of medical foods(which is a meal replacement bar or shake)
2 servings of concentrated protiens
1 serving of legumes
0 Dairy(no dairy, not one bit, weird, but I'll get used to it)
1 serving of nuts or seeds
2 servings of fruit
3-4(at least) servings of category 1 veggies(the good kind)
1 serving of category 2 veggies(corn, carrots, yams, potatoes)
1 serving of grains(this will be tough at first, I dont eat A LOT of carbs, but still just one grain, like one piece of toast a day)
4 servings of oils(any cooking oils, dressing oils or an 1/8 of an avocado)

I'm supposed to eat every 2 hours
Drink 60-80oz of water
30-45 min exercise 3-4 times a day(do way more than that anyway)
And ready for this, ready?
NO DIET SODA. Now this will be so hard at first cause I am a diet soda addict but I'm going to not have any cause my doc sounds like she knows what she's talking about haha
I have a feeling this is going to shock my body this week haha

Wish me luck with my new eating plan!

Seneca Indian Cleanse

I became a happy camper this week when I finally got the juicer I always wanted!

Yes, this very same beauty. Love it.

I went today today to the Barnes and Noble to pick up this book I've been reading it and let me tell you, I am so excited about it!! It is really a must get and follow!

In the back of the book where some of the diets are I found a Cleanse that I decided to do today. Seneca Indian Cleanse.


I am going in to my doctor to start the Fist Line Therapy Program and I decided for myself before I went in, I wanted to do this Cleanse

I started it today and its a four day cleanse.
The first day is fruits, any and all, besides bananas, and as much as you want.
The second day is herbal teas, as much as you want but no food.
The third day is any and all vegetables you want.
The fourth day is a vegetable broth that you drink all day.

I'm really excited to see how I feel when I finish this. I know it'll be a little bit of a challenge because I am a self proclaimed caffeine addict, mmmm diet soda. But so far it's ok, besides the slight caffeine headache that I'm sure will grow into a bigger one. Ohhh Whell though.

I'll definitely be blogging about how it goes. If anyone has or is going to try let me know!!

The best bad news

I've debated for a little bit about writing this, but then I was like mehh it's my blog, and I'm really happy about it, so why not share it, no?


These last lot of months maybe 8 or 9, my body has been all sorts of out of whack. I've gained a lot of weight, have had such a hard time losing it, even though I've been working so hard, unbelievably tired, demonic periods, completely energy lacking, roller coaster of emotions and moodiness, and just so so much other stuff that I won't bore you with. I went to the the doctor back in February and he thought it was probably a thyroid issue. I got my blood work back and what do ya know, It's perfect. Thyroid is good, blood sugar, cholesterol, everything good. I've never been so frustrated I knew my body was not right but the doctor said everything was good and he didn't do anything else, no more test to see if anything else was wrong or anything. I cried so much when I found out I was ok, I just wanted something to be wrong so it could be fixed.

I let it go though for a couple months thinking maybe it was all just in my head, maybe it was just stress. I thought maybe if I just change my way of thinking it would change how my body felt. But sure enough after a couple months of this nothing changed, I still felt the same and frustrated as ever.

A couple weeks ago I decided to go to a gynecologist, which I should have done a long time ago. I went to this really awesome place that does everything there for womens health. I just got my test results back Thursday and sure enough I have a pretty big hormone imbalance. Finally! I have never been so relieved to have something wrong with me! I felt like it was all in my mind and I was crazy for the longest time! Now I can get fixed!

But wait, that's not the best part. Because I have this I qualify for this program they have there. I am going to be going to the nutritionist they have there, they are gonna do a bunch of test and then make a diet plan that is custom to me. I'll go in there every week and weigh and they'll make my weekly diet and workout routine. All I have to do is follow what they make out for me. It's 12 weeks long, and the best part is it is completely covered by insurance!! I don't have to pay a penny!

I am seriously so freakin happy!! I feel silly but I've been crying so much about it! I just can't get over how perfect it is that I went to this doctor, this place is great! And that I get to be in this program, I just feel so lucky. I start this Wednesday and I just can't wait to start FINALLY getting better!!

Weight loss update.

I pushed it so hard this week. I've been going to the gym the last couple weeks twice a day, and doing Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. I ate good all week, even the weekend I was spot on, which that is the first time in well...a longgg time I've been good on the weekend. I don't know my but Friday comes along and I just start craving crap. But so far this weekend I've been great, and I know I'll be good tomorrow.

Although I was so good this week I was dreading weighing, not because I wasn't good, but because I'm on my period, and everyone knows you weigh more on your period. But I decided to bite the bullet and weigh.

I lost 4lbs this week and have officially lost 20 lbs!

I still have a lot more to go, but I'm gettin there!

Just gotta keep telling myself one pound at a time.

The Bad and the Good

Don't you hate that feeling of getting sick, and you know there is nothing you can do to stop it. I know I do. I woke up this morning coughing like crazy, then I was fine the rest of the day, now all night it hurts so bad to swallow and I've been coughing a ton again. What sucks the worst is I take ample vitamin C everyday, as in like a couple chew-able tablets and airborne. So how I am I not invincible to a cold? For reals.

Know what I do like? Losing weight. Especially being able to tell I'm losing weight without the scale telling you. Does anyone have a certain body part they have that gives you then first sign of you losing weight. Mine is my collarbone. Is that weird? I'm first able to tell I'm losing weight when my collarbone starts showing through. Well that, then my face stats slimming down. I like that one, know what I don't like that starts getting smaller, my boobs, which always happens before my stomach or legs. Like what the H!? I want those to stay, not my stomach or legs. So dumb I tell ya.

Have you noticed I failed at doing that 30 day photo challenge? Cause I definitely did. Oh well, it was fun the first 2 days I suppose. I also suppose I could catch up since I'm only 2 days behind. But I really don't feel like it

Also one last thing. I changed my mind about where I want us to get stationed next.

1. Augusta, GA

And since I want that one sooooo bad I'll just leave it with my one choice. GA. Ohhh please let us go there!

Also, wowo! I just realized it's 1 am! Why Am I still awake? I have a 9:45 boot camp conditioning class at the gym tomorrow. Doesn't sound so early now, but if I stay up any later it will

Something New

I've been working really hard lately, working out a ton, and eating good, trying to loose weight. I think it would be good if I started tracking my progress on here, just so I can keep track, and be accountable to everyone haha don't wanna embarrass myself. It's really hard for me to just weigh myself every week cause there is a scale right there in the bathroom. It's right there! It's like I just gotta weight! hahaha so instead of every week I'll weigh twice a week, or three time, haven't really decided yet haha.

Today marks 14 days I've been going at it, and I'm down 13 pounds.

Side note to all of this. I have been watching Storage Wars and Auction Kings like it's going out of style. Now all I wanna do is go to an auction. Actually I wanna go to Gallery 63 in Atlanta, or a storage unit auction. Especially Gallery 63.

Side note number 2. I have come up with a list of the places I would like to be stationed come this October. The list goes as such.

1. Germany(big fingers cross!)

2. Augusta(I know, I'm a fool, but I love it!)

3. Hawaii(island life, ahh)

4. Alaska(so beautiful)

5.Sierra Vista(home sweet home, well sort of, 2.5 hours away)

Hopefully finding out next month! Yay!