I've been holding together real well the last 2 months, like perfectly in public. I hate showing people I'm sad. But right now I feel like I just need to let it out.
This week has been really hard. One because I've talk to Alex twice in the last week for about 10 min each. They had to limit the bandwidth in Korea for the relief in Japan. So Alex hasn't had internets. I guess another reason it's been hard is because it really hit me that we have a lot longer to go. Seven months to be exact, and I know it could be worse, but still, it sucks.
I'm just really hoping this feeling doesn't hang around long. I've cried a lot this week, and I'm just tired of feeling this way. I just want my husband back.
I'm living at my parents right now, and I'm so grateful that we get to save this money, and my family is great, no complaints here. I know it's stupid but I just want to be on my own. I loved living in August, and being on my own(mostly haha) and just having my own space. I want that right now so bad!
I'm trying to keep myself so busy. I'm going to school and that takes up a good amount of time. I've been going to gym incessantly, at least once usually twice a day. Been hiking with the dogs. I've lost 12 pounds so far, and have x amount to go (it's a lot so let's not even try to guess)but I'm gettin there! My bones and muscles seriously hurt so bad from how much I'm working out.
I just realized I'm rambling a lot. But what I'm trying to say is, i don't like hibernate in my room and act depressed. I'm always out and cheery and doing everything to stay busy and happy. Yet I can't seem to shake this stupid funk.
Gahhh I just miss my husband
Any suggestions about what else I can do?